Fitness Ball

I have learned a new word for hell. Also known as fitness ball. So I did some sit ups with it. Ouch and more ouch. Then I decided to hit the stairs then the treadmill. Afterwards I thought I would use my weight while on the ball. Yup, it's hell and I bought a one way ticket. Even if I don't get the 6 pak abs I will be happy with the loss of the gut. Week one down and a life time to go.

Death by treadmill

So I started back up with the excercise routine. I also started the eat healthy thing. No loving it, but I know it's for the best. I am doing 30 minutes on the treadmill. Would do 45, but the thing is an incline machine. Yeah, it changes height during my walk. So far the 30 minutes is tiring, but I hope to overcome it and move to harder patterns. I'm also running up and down the stairs. I read in a health guide that a 150lb person doing the stairs for 1 minute looses 150 cal. Well I figure a tubby like me doing it for a complete song will burn a ton. Note to self, it hurts like hell halfway through the song. Go me for trying.

Lonely

How do I hate these times. I really hate the lonely feeling. I usually just move on, but then there are times it comes on strong. I look at POF and see if there is anyone I would like to meet, but I just can't do it. For several reasons: 1st with my job on the line I can't be sure i can sustain dating. 2nd It would only be to get rid of the feeling. 3rd What I really want I won't find until I am 100% happy with myself. On the upsie I have started back working ot. Sort of. I am doing the treadmill for 30 minutes a day. It's a start.

Going out with an ex

So on Saturday I went out with an ex. I met her before the movie and I found out she is dating an Army guy. Am I upset. Not at all, she's an ex for 2 reasons. None of which I want to comment on right now. When a few of her male friends finally showed up we went and saw the Wrestler. Talk about not being a happy movie. Not a typical me movie. We even joked that it should be called The Wrestler and the Topless Bar. Way to many shots in the Topless Bar. You have to see it to understand. Anyway we all left and said our goodbyes. I found out she was parked near me so we walked to the cars together. She gave me a big hug and we parted ways. It was then that i noticed that she did not hug any of the other guys. Makes me wonder.......

Old friends

Tonight I hung out with friends I haven't seen in a long time. I met them at Jelly Rolls thinking of all the fun we had there. I figured it would be great to catch up and create new memories. Boy was I wrong. I don't think I could have been anymore bored. You know it's bad when you keep looking at your watch thinking is it over yet. Texting your other friends wishing they were here because they are always fun to be around. I know things like this happen, but when it does it really sucks. Here's to hoping the next outing is better.